If you really knew me.....
 

alright, this is a way for me and others to get sfuff off our chests..

i know most people on this forum have day to day issues, dont feel alone their are others out there are in the same situation. lets reach out to each other and give support to those that need it.

No Bashing Please, keep the funny shit out of here

discuss


ill start

my childhood wasnt the best that it could have been. i lived in a broken home. my father was never around and my mother was into alot of drugs. at the age of 11 my mom pushed doing drugs on me. it eventually happend and i became a addict, user and POS. my drug habbits haunted me for a long time (till i turned 18) i have done way more drugs than i can remember. and the drugs still effect my life to this day (im sober though)

as i kid, i grew up in a rough part of town. my dad thought it was time to pack up and find a new home after us witnessing a drive by shooting happen right in front of our home. our neighbor was the target, he was shot once in each leg. his car had a full clip unloaded into it as well as the guys home.

my childhood consisted of drug abuse and bad decisions. my father was never around due to him traveling alot for his job at that time. so ther was no connection between him and i. as life went on my father and i had issues with eachother. we couldnt stand to be around one another. more often than not our altercations would become violent. that is just a brife rundown of my past.

present day. i struggle really bad with depression, trying to not abuse pills again and keep my life straight as possible. i sleep way to much and just had to pay a visit to a hospital because for about 4 day i was unable to eat and if i tried to eat i would through up. i went 2 days without being able to piss or shit. life has been hard on me lately (i know some may have it worse)

all this shit is just pulling up on me and it seems there is no end to it. Debt, living at home, not having anything to so for in my life, depression and yall dont freak out. suicidal tendencies.

there has been alot that i have left out. but to me right now, i have hit rock bottom....

im 22 years old now and i feel like i have nothing to show for it. im in a rut and i feel like nothing is going for me. i had a great job but lost it due to the econmy. and it took almost 8 months for me to find a new job (Dunkin Donuts)

I have social anxiety disorder and can't be around groups of people without freaking out and acting nervous or feeling out of place

This is an MTV show. I will probably read through these but as of now I dont plan on participating.

Wonton- If you have a halfway decent record, join the military. Funny business aside, if you go skits, they pay for it. If you don't, you'll have decent opportunities.

I'm a bit OCD and have anxieties in crowds, but don't most?

All in all, we are alive with food in front of us when we want it, so we have it good :)

:inout:

Go to the military, that will give you a career, a purpose, some money, good experience, less taxes, they will help you with debt, maybe kill a towelhead, meet (meat) new friends, and get away from the dirty south and the game. I would have gone this route if my parents weren't such filthy rich ballas.

What these guys said. Military provides the structure and purpose some people need to get through life.

i only skimmed but you can look for what are called head hunters for a skill set you have. that's how i find new work. they are payed by companies to find people with skills they need. look around the net.

Join the Navy. Best decision I made in my life. It's now paying my way through school as well as paying me to get by via Post 9/11 GI Bill (free rent and car parts lol)...and I visited 30+ countries across Europe & South America...

Whatever you do...don't get married!


I had an eerily similar childhood...and struggle with a lot of issues. Having a family makes me really stand up and do what I need to do, but the internal struggle is still very tough, and the crap that a nitpicky, critical, controlling and nagging wife adds on top of it can be heavy.

I dislike 90% of the people I meet when I actually leave my home.
I gotta crap every time I see traffic on the highway so I don't leave my home.
I dont do drugs, people call me The Narc
All my friends who don't know how to use computers ostracize me because they think forums are some sort of pyramid scheme and I am in some way ripping millions of people off.
I dont drive my cars, ever (see not leaving home)

So far my cure has been Battlefield Bad Company 2. I consider that going out, hell, even traveling and exercise and everyone I meet online knows about computers to some degree.

Oh, and thankfully I don't live in my parents basement anymore. LOL

LOL, what?

I thought veterans get a tax break, ya know, for risking their life and whatnot. I dunno :dunno:

no one cares about us Canadians obviously.

I <3 Canada. Going up there beginning of August to run in some Canadian Kart League events.

I get the VA Home Loan, cheapass medical/dental, and free tuition and such so yeah, there's a fuckton of benefits for veterans.

Short answer: Cowboy up, and drag your sorry ass out of it.

The fact of the matter is, only you can decide if you want to change bad enough to work for it. Nothing in life is free, and whether it's money, fame or relationships, it takes effort. The more you want, the more effort it takes. If you want a better job, or one that pays more, you have to work to get it. School + reading or even just getting out there every night and pounding the pavement. It's not just gonna fall from the skies, and chances are, you won't find it on-line, either. You have to forego wasting your time and money on crap food, TV, the internet and excuses. Put up or shut up, no one is gonna do it for ya.

It's like losing weight. We all know that stupid fad diets don't work; it takes eating right and exercise. Everything else is just looking for shortcuts or playing games. No way around it, you either do what it takes, or you don't succeed. Same thing here; make up your mind and do it.

And here's the big kick in the ass: you have to do it now. If you slack off in the beginning, you're never gonna catch up. Hard to look at it that way when you're in your early 20's, and life is wide open ahead of you. But like a 401k, if you don't start early, you'll forever be wishing you had. Time is the one resource you have, so don't waste it. Decide what you want to do, and work towards that goal.

This may sound harsh, but life is full of choices. Work hard and you might get ahead. Sitting back and letting it pass you by is guaranteed to get you nothing. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and take charge of your life.

I would agree to most of the post above. The Military would allow you to get away from your situation. They will provide you a new structure. One that is firm. But, very livable. I went in the Air Force and it was great for me. They will teach you a new way to live.
I have been through a lot of depression myself. This is part of the reason for the Miata. It is my way out when things get me really down. Now I have a little boy in my life and everything has changed. I will say that you are only 22. Please do not worry so much about what you have to show. You can focus on what you don’t have and be grateful. You know... Cancer, Some form of internal failure, or issue like epilepsy.

One question. Do you have a religion or form of faith? I am not saying this is the end all cure all mentally. A lot of it has to do you and where you are at in your mind.

Anyways, I am in SC and like Atlanta a good bit. If you ever need to speak to someone please do not hesitate.

Respect to Won.

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