I definitely enjoy the freedom. That's probably what I like best about it.
At least I still get to go out and lug forms up and down hills when I can fit it in to my schedule. lol
If I didnt have the concrete work and painting on the side, I might not like it as much. Working from home on a day like today when its pouring out makes me appreciate not having to be out in it. I still do it, but now I have an option and I don't HAVE to.
The worst part of all of this for me is the worrying. I ******* worry too much now. I used to get up at 6, clock in by 7 and be sweating my *** off for the next 10-12 hours. All day long I would just work and talk **** to the brazilians and think about what I was going to do that night. The money I made went fast and went to nothing.
Now I have almost an ideal setup, money is managing to come in steady, financially I'm the best I've ever been, but I cant stop thinking about making more and all these what ifs everyday.
I guess that's part of it and I do like the responsibility, but I feel like I'm not enjoying it like I should be. Last night was the first time I got drunk and laughed like crazy in months.