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Old 11-19-2008, 10:51 PM   #1
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Default Kid suicides on webcam today...

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The thread he started before he offed himself.: Click here

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#10 on this page.. here
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To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an [email protected]#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of [email protected]#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I [email protected]#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"

Some hella crazy stuff.. tragic and a waste of life.
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Old 11-19-2008, 11:27 PM   #2
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from what i have been reading (50+pages so far).. mods and users on another forum egged him on, he did it, its been confirmed.. 9 people only called the police :(

hella crazy!
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Damn that's some retarded ****.... Suicide is stupid, but I do feel for his friends and family that cared about him, but that's a cowardly way out of your problems
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from what i have been reading (50+pages so far).. mods and users on another forum egged him on, he did it, its been confirmed.. 9 people only called the police :(

hella crazy!
......so who's responsible for his death for egging him on?

That **** is just fucked up!
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would egging him on be illegal??
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Old 11-19-2008, 11:58 PM   #6
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wow just wow
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Wow that's nuts. Is it just me or do all the crazy crossposts seem to be from bodybuilding forums.
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Old 11-20-2008, 12:27 AM   #8
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Wow that's nuts. Is it just me or do all the crazy crossposts seem to be from bodybuilding forums.

haha, yea, seems that way.

It would have been crazy if he was that guy with the hot girlfriend.
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Old 11-20-2008, 12:42 AM   #9
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staring at those avatar all day and reading "brah" all day can lead a man to the crazies.
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Did anyone see untraceable? It's like killwithme.com in real life.
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Sillyness...just sillyness. My brother attempted suicide once...I handed him two razors and told him the first was to kill himself...the second was in case he dropped the first one...then drew a line up his arm so he didn't screw it up. In hind sight - not the best idea I have ever had...fortunately though he hasn't tried it again since...been 10 years. My mother recently died...family thought for sure he would...not so much as a bad thing to say...he was a rock for my father who was pretty bad off emotionally. Yes...my brother and I spend ALOT of time together now that he has his life together.

Suicide is never the way...someone always has it worse...
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Old 11-20-2008, 02:44 PM   #13
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As I was telling chad yesterday, when I am feeling down I log onto facebook to see where everyone from highschool ended up, generally, I feel like celebrating afterwards.

Most people when they are young think serious crazy stuff, caught up with girlfriends and school.... as you get older, some people think of suicide when times get tough and almost unbearable. I could not imagine losing everything, family, home, car, friends and not having that thought cross my mind.

At 19, it's too soon to be making such a call, what a waste.


Over on that gay forum they are calling for the mod to be banned etc because she said the guy was a postwhore. Apparently once a month he said he was going to kill himself, just this time it was real.

Its hardcore, I dont think I could kill myself.
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That's too bad. Not to be the odd one out, but there are always reasons for someone taking their own life, and they're probably pretty valid, or at least can offer an explanation for the way they feel. Kid probably did have unfornate things happen to him and probably suffered from major depression. Some people don't get better and some people aren't as tough as others. I feel for the guy.
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Man that's fucked up.
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At 19, it's too soon to be making such a call, what a waste.
The problem is it's teenagers that have the raging emotions, feel everthing so "deeply", can't see a way out, etc. No perspective at that age, just emotions. There is too much drama at that age and anything can be overwhelming for many.

Pretty screwed up people egging him on. That's the kind of BS teenagers get into, and get off on, with the net. It's everywhere. The anonymity of the internet allows people to do and say anything. They are distanced and impersonalized from the situation even when they are right in the middle of it.
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This was just reported on the news stations down here in South Florida.

RIP.
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Turns out that one of the guys that my wife works with is this guys brother's best friend.
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